As it is Wednesday yet again, I am writing a very different post this week. my Ramblings Of A StressedMum – 05/02/2025 is more an update and a request to bare with me right now.
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Devastated
Following an amazing weekend, and my husband saying this has been such a great weekend. I am all happy and buzzing. He went to our spare bedroom to look for something. I heartbreakingly around 6.45 found him collapsed.
Through my parents giving him cpr, 6 paramedics working on him there was nothing anyone could do.
Yesterday
I was very stressed yesterday as they were doing the post mortem. As I had spoken to them the previous day and it was all explained. I didn’t want him to be messed about with, I didn’t want more tests being done after the initial one. Luckily, his cause of death was seen straight away so it was just minimal intrution.
I just want to say I have been quiet. C is sticking to me like glue at the moment. The hardest time is nighttime where for the time being I think that is probably going to be when I work.
My world has fallen apart. My life has changed forever.
I am still around but for now I just wanted to say why I have been quiet.
I am spending my time with C or on the phone to the boys and his mum where we cry and talk or just try to get our heads around this
no words to describe how you are all feeling – my thoughts and prayers are with you all
Thank you, it really doesn’t seem real, just been speaking to his best mate and we are both just numb
I’m so very sorry to read your sad news. Cry, talk, be with others – do whatever you need to do in order to get through the next few months while you come to terms with this awful loss.
Thank you, C is keeping very close to me I am currently sat in her bedroom with the birds. It is when I am alone or the numerous times I wake in the night and it hits me again when the tears keep flowing
I am so sorry – there are no words 🙁
Thank you I am broken at the moment
So sorry for your loss x sorry for how sudden it was x i hope in time you all manage to heal,take time and cuddle those that are still here x
Thank you I don’t think I will every heal my heartache will never go but slowly very slowly it will become easier
I am so sorry to hear about your husband, what a shock for you and your family. Thinking of you all. Sending love and hugs. x
Thank you I am not taking it well it was a huge shock I am just broken
I can not begin to imagine how devastating this is for you all. It will have left a massive hole as he was so loved by you all. Try and make sure you are looking after yourself as not only are you grieving, but your are also witnessing C’s and the boys which is distressing as well. Just take each day a minute at a time. xxxx
I can’t accept he has gone yet, it is like someone is playing a horrible trick. C is my rock she is by my side constantly. She went to college yesterday for one lesson, and I sat in the car the whole time and just cried. She is going in for the morning today as it will be good for her to be around her friends. I am going to be sticking to my parents as cant be on my own as that is when my heart just breaks. The boys are constantly on the phone to me and between us all we have now arranged the funeral to show him how much he was loved