A Letter to My Beautiful Daughter

Dear C

You have been ill now for 3 years, and I have watched my once chatty, bubbly, happy little girl get worse and worse as the months have turned into years.

I have watched as friends started to forget you, I have held you while you have sobbed your heart out that you just want to be normal and go back to school, and to be with your friends.

I have watched you struggle as you tried to do your tuition in school, and also from your bed.

I can see the pain you are in daily, and you have heard me say many times that if I could have one wish, I would swap with you in a heartbeat so that I could take on the illness and give you back your life.

We chat about days out, or even a little trip out somewhere but even that is a challenge for you, and this past couple of weeks have proven why.

The strength you have shown me has never made me more proud of what a star you are, and no words can ever express that.

We found out two weeks ago that something was going on around your eyes following our opticians appointment, we never for once dreamt of what would happen, but mri scans and further tests showed you had excess fluid around your brain which was pressing on your optic nerve.  No wonder you have been so ill.

You had to have a lumbar puncture, you were scared but even when they took three attempts and failed, your face said it all, but you still went in for that 4th attempt, showing what a strong person you are.

The results were a lot higher than anyone thought, and showed you had papilledema and it hit me and Dad then just how bad you had been feeling, and how ill you have been,  also slotting into place a few of your other symptoms.  We now have a lot more medical support and I hope we are now on our journey to getting you back to being able to start to enjoy life again.

We had a little blip last night, when your migraine headache felt as if it was coming back, but hopefully that is all it was.

Everywhere is full of back to school, and I know that upsets you, as that is all you want to go back to school and be in lessons and be with your friends.  I can’t say if this will happen soon, but we have great support on your education and everyone is working at your pace and with what you can cope with.

You really do amaze both me and your Dad and we are so very proud of you.

Lots of Love

Mum xxx

 

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17 Comments

  1. Actual ordinary
    14th September 2018 / 11:38 am

    Love your article

  2. 15th September 2018 / 6:26 pm

    Im sorry your daughter has been ill, I can relate to this with my eldest son being in and out of hospital this year undergoing countless tests. There’s nothing worse than having your children poorly. xx

    • 15th September 2018 / 8:07 pm

      Thank you, it is is hard when they are ill, we have been like this for three years, but this is all new tests, she is such a star though x

  3. 16th September 2018 / 7:07 pm

    Such a beautiful letter to your daughter. Love it when I see parents expressing this love to their kids like this. We see some amazing stuff from them, and they need to know it from time to time.

    • 17th September 2018 / 10:36 am

      Thank you, they do need to know it and I tell her as well, we have just gone through another stressful round of tests last week and she amazes me x

  4. Elizabeth O
    16th September 2018 / 7:54 pm

    I am sorry to read you have had a time of it lately. It must be so hard. I am sure your daughter appreciates the wonderful letter and all the care and love she gets from you

    • 17th September 2018 / 10:35 am

      The one thing through all of this is she knows me and her Dad are there for her and will do everything we can to help her x

  5. 16th September 2018 / 8:14 pm

    Your daughter sounds like a very strong little girl. I can’t imagine what you are going through but I know when they are ill at home and can go to school it can play a toll. I hope she starts showing improvement soon so she can return to school xxx

    • 17th September 2018 / 10:34 am

      Thank you, it has been hard and a very long journey but am hoping things are going to start improving soon x

  6. 17th September 2018 / 3:42 am

    I’m so sorry to hear about your daughter’s condition. I hope she bounces back soon and be back in school again.

    • 17th September 2018 / 10:33 am

      Thank you, I really hope so too x

  7. 17th September 2018 / 11:07 am

    That was heart touching. I’ll pray for her she’ll be ok soon 🙂

    • 17th September 2018 / 1:00 pm

      Thank you x

  8. 17th September 2018 / 12:13 pm

    What a sweet letter. I am so sorry to hear about your daughter’s condition. Sending hugs xx

    • 17th September 2018 / 12:59 pm

      Thank you x

  9. 25th September 2018 / 5:14 am

    Oh my, broke my heart to read this. I have lost my temper several times on my daughters these past days. Reading this, I can’t help but cry. I am so sorry that you and your daughter have to endure this. God bless you and comfort you.

    • 25th September 2018 / 10:31 am

      Thank you, it is hard but we get throug it day bu day x

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