Blogtober Day 21 – What Am I Afraid Of?

Today is day 21 of the blogtober challenge, thank you to those who are still with me on this challenge. Today we are finding out what am I afraid of?

The one thing that scares me is death, which I am sure it is for a lot of people.   I am not so scared of dying, well I am but it is not my reason for being scared of death.  I am scared of what my death will mean to those around me.

My Daughter, how will she cope without her Mum, I am the one who knows everything about her, what her needs are, what she likes, what she does not like.  Please don’t get me wrong her Dad is great with her and they are very close, but all the basic day to day things, he leaves down to me.

How will my husband cope without me, he is not totally useless and could would be fine looking after himself and running the home.  But emotionally how would he cope.

Likewise, I am petrified of those close to me dying, the last couple of years my Dad has fought cancer and had a stroke, and it scared me, it made me realise that one day they will not be there, I was crushed.  Luckily, he has gone into remission and seems to be coping after his stroke.  But even now, I refuse to talk about one day my Mum and Dad will not be here.  We are very close and I am not ashamed to admit I am scared of that day.

I also hate the thought of my husband dying first, I would cope on the daily living side, and be the strong one for the kids, but I know I would never meet anyone else, he is my soul mate and my best friend.

What a depressing post, I am so sorry and promise tomorrows topic is much happier.

What are you afraid of?



  1. Baby Isabella
    21st October 2016 / 7:05 pm

    My mummy is scared of death and the fear of bereavement as well. She lost her dad 8 years ago and remembers the feeling 🙁 it’s part of life and unfortunately we can’t change fate 🙁

    • admin
      22nd October 2016 / 9:19 am

      I am so sorry your mummy lost her dad, give her a cuddle from me. It is part of life unfortunately x

  2. 21st October 2016 / 8:21 pm

    I am afraid of the dark! I hate it so much! I’m also afraid of losing my dad after losing my mum at 17 xx

    • admin
      22nd October 2016 / 9:19 am

      I used to be afraid of the dark, I can understand your fear of losing your Dad x

    • admin
      22nd October 2016 / 9:18 am

      I think we are all like this reading other posts x

  3. Harriet from Toby & Roo
    21st October 2016 / 9:29 pm

    Hmm I worry about this too. Hope would the kids cope, what would my husband do to ensure that they weren’t too traumatised if I suddenly wasn’t there. I fear their deaths more than my own, dying itself is not terrifying to me, rather the fear of losing control of the aftermath.

    • admin
      22nd October 2016 / 9:17 am

      This is what I fear, I am the one who makes everything run ok, I know what everyone needs or wants and what will happen if I am not there

  4. 22nd October 2016 / 7:52 am

    I think it’s a very rational fear. It’s one that I try not to think about too much, as I can’t change it, apart to look after myself.

    • admin
      22nd October 2016 / 9:14 am

      It is a very rational fear and something I knew we can’t change x

  5. francesca
    22nd October 2016 / 9:37 am

    No, I worry about the exact same things! I think as you become a parent you realise more how important life really is! I lost my mum at a young age and I would HATE for that to happen to my children, I really want to watch them grow into men and enjoy life for a long time with them!!!

    • admin
      22nd October 2016 / 1:42 pm

      I think it is magnefied more when you become a parent x

  6. 22nd October 2016 / 11:52 am

    Seeing loved ones dye is very traumatic I’m not surprised that you have these fears. I’m scared of hubby going first for the same reason but also scared if I did go first he might not cope.

    • admin
      22nd October 2016 / 1:38 pm

      It is very scary x

  7. 22nd October 2016 / 11:39 am

    Death is frightening, I sometimes worry about what will happen to my cats if I die x

    • admin
      22nd October 2016 / 1:41 pm

      It is frightening, worrying about what will happen x

  8. Sarah, Things Sarah Loves
    22nd October 2016 / 12:54 pm

    I’m scared of the unknown, particularly in situations where things are out of my control.

    • admin
      22nd October 2016 / 1:38 pm

      I can relate to this x

  9. Helen
    22nd October 2016 / 1:08 pm

    I’m also terrified of what my death would mean for my daughter. I’m a single parent so the thought of it is something that has kept me up all night!

    • admin
      22nd October 2016 / 1:37 pm

      It is terrifying thinking about what would happen x

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